Wednesday, December 31, 2008

New Year...New Hope!

Another year has gone to the wayside. I admit 2008 was not the best of years for us. Reagan was plagued with horrible seizures the entire year with seemingly no end in sight. But this year I have seen many miracles in the lives of other families. Other children suffering from the same seizure disorder as Reagan, now completely seizure-free and making huge strides developmentally. These are families and children that I prayed for on a daily basis and now I praise God daily for the miracles I have seen in their lives. It gives me hope. Hope that this year will be the year for Reagan's miracle. The seizures will stop and her development will take off. I know it can happen. I've seen it happen! Now we just need it to happen for Reagan. But 2008 hasn't been all bad. There have been some high points. Reagan is now sleeping in her crib (in her own room) and through the night (most nights). That in itself is a miracle! And it has been a HUGE blessing in our lives. It's amazing how much stress not sleeping can add to your life. Reagan has also become a much, much better baby this year. She finally got over the colic she battled for the first year and a half of her life. She's just such a joy to be around now. Her smile can light up any room. She still battles the occasional tummy pains and crying fits, but all in all she's so much happier...and that makes us so much happier. I also want to take this time to thank everyone that checks in on and prays for us on a daily basis. Your support means the world to us and we are so thankful for each and everyone of you! Please continue to keep our little angel in your prayers and here's to 2009...the best year yet!

Tuesday, December 30, 2008


Reagan took a late night nap that kept her up pretty late last night but at least she slept through to 6:30am. Not great but I'll take it. And she finally woke up on the right side of the crib because she's been in a great mood all day today. She's been a total nut case tonight! Very high strung and talking it up...I think Mike must have given her some candy when I went to the grocery store earlier. She's been cracking herself and us up for hours! She'll just start laughing out of no where and then we start laughing... I guess it's true what they say, laughter is contagious! She's just now getting tired and cranky from it all. She's worn herself out and now can't figure out how to settle down for the night. I'm hoping she's going to crash and sleep well tonight. I've been a little wiped out with her erratic sleeping the last couple nights. She does keep us on our toes. Never a dull moment with this girl!

Monday, December 29, 2008

Oh where, oh where did my sweet girl go?

Oh what a night...isn't that part of a song? Oh my goodness Reagan was a turkey last night (and this afternoon). I'm still totally at a it it her tummy?? I don't know, but whatever it is makes her miserable!! She woke up at 3:30am a little fussy but OK. I fed her a bottle, then by 4:30 she had kicked it into high gear with the crying. Finally around 6:15am Mike couldn't take it anymore, he took her from me and laid her in bed with him...and within a few minutes she was out. I don't know if he's just magic or if she wears herself out with me and then passes out for him. She woke back up a little after 8 and she seemed to be feeling much better. She was in a good mood all morning. Then around 3pm it hit her again. She started up the crying and went almost nonstop for 3+ hrs. She stopped for 15min or so while I fed her a bottle, but when she was done it started again. She didn't stop for good until she fell asleep (again thanks to Mike). I just don't know what to do with her. It's a stark reminder of the fussy baby we used to deal with on a daily basis. I guess I have gotten spoiled lately with her being such a sweetie...please come back sweet girl!!!! Keep her in your prayers...she's still dealing with a lot of seizures on a daily basis and obviously having some sort of other pain we're still not sure about.

Sunday, December 28, 2008

Pain in the tummy

Reagan has been waking up around 6:30 every morning the last few days. I thought I heard something and looked over at the monitor and there she was kicking and squirming. Mike gave her a bottle and then put her in bed with us. I don't think she ever went back to sleep, she was content just laying there next to us. She's twitching a lot, especially in the morning. I'm not sure if it wakes her up or just prevents her from going back to sleep. She's been in a good mood most of the day today, I was even talking about what a sweet girl she's been lately. Until tonight. I don't know if it was the apricots I fed her or what, but she seemed to be having some serious tummy problems. Nonstop screaming and crying for almost 2hrs! Poor thing. It could be teething because I did find a new tooth coming in (the bottom left canine...tooth #10), but I'm pretty sure it was tummy related. We just feel so helpless when she gets like this. There's NOTHING we can do to help her, we just have to wait it out. Mike rubbed her tummy until she finally cried herself to sleep. I was hoping that maybe the probiotics she's been taking were helping her (because it's been a while since the tummy pains have reared their ugly head), but maybe not. I sure hope she sleeps well tonight and wakes up feeling much better...tomorrow. She's supposed to have OT tomorrow morning, so we'll play it by ear and see how she's feeling. Please keep her in your prayers.

Saturday, December 27, 2008

It's not easy being green

It was an interesting one last night. Reagan went down for her late night nap around 7pm and then did not want to wake up. I tried my best to wake her at 8, but she would not budge. I fed her a bottle and gave her all her medicine while she was still fast asleep! We certainly did not expect her to sleep through the night going to bed so early, but she slept straight through to 6am, which is pretty impressive! We were all super lazy today...our biggest excitement was watching a Big Break marathon we had recorded on DVR. Below is a pic of Reagan modeling her new green M&M onesie. She is such a big girl now! She's wearing almost exclusively size 24months now. It seems like she was always wearing a size or two smaller than her age! How things change! For a kid who hates to eat, she sure looks healthy!!

Friday, December 26, 2008

Rough night

Last night Reagan took a late nap (like she's been doing lately) and then did not want to go to bed. She started getting fussy and I finally put her in her crib around midnight. After only a minute or two she started up and got herself completely hysterical. I went and picked her up, tried to console her but it didn't work. She didn't want a bottle, she didn't want to be rocked...she just wanted to yell and scream at me!! I'd lay her down and she'd get worse. Finally around 1am she wore herself out and fell asleep. The whole process was draining and I was left feeling totally exhausted too. Luckily, she's been very good all day today. The weather here is so unChristmasy. There was a high of 74 today and with 90% humidity, it's just yuck! Tomorrow it's going to rain but at least there will be cooler weather to accompany it. I'm still very irritated with Reagan's AFOs. They just are not fitting her properly. She's still getting very irritated on that pinky toe (and heel) on her left foot. She's not able to wear them nearly as much as she's supposed to and I can already tell she's losing some of the flexibility that she gained from the casting. That really, really makes me mad! I'm calling the orthotic place first thing Monday morning (they're closed today) and they better do something to fix this! These things are not cheap ($1500+), the least they could do is get them right!! I did increase her AM dose of Topomax this she's at 60mg 2x/day. This is her highest dose yet (remember we were going up, then we went back down, now were going back up again). I'm hoping and praying we'll see some improvement with this new increase! Please continue to keep her in your prayers!!

Thursday, December 25, 2008

A Very Merry Christmas

Today has been a good day. Reagan slept well last night and when we woke at 8:15am, she was there wide awake laying in her bed kicking and squirming around but not making a peep. We drove over to Grandma's house to see what goodies Santa brought us all. Let me just say (God love her) my mom goes CRAZY over Christmas! I don't even know how many presents were wrapped under the tree, but way too many for three adults and one baby! Although I unwrapped the presents, Reagan seemed to enjoy the excitement of it all. She got tons of toys, clothes, bows, and books (she is the only grandchild in my family and it shows). She was wiped out by the whole process and went down for a nap right before lunch (perfect timing for us). We all ate way too much and will probably be dieting for months just to shed the extra pounds. It was a nice day and Reagan was a sweetie. I've posted some pics below so please enjoy and I hope each and every one of you has a wonderful, blessed Christmas!

Wednesday, December 24, 2008

Twas the night before Christmas

Reagan's still not feeling quite right. Last night she woke up at 2am crying. I went and took her AFOs off (after only 3hrs of wearing them) and she managed to fall back asleep on her own. I don't know what we're going to do about these AFOs...they must be bothering her. She's been pretty fussy most of the day today and was running a low grade fever this afternoon. Maybe it's teething?? Who knows. We did manage to make it through the entire Christmas Eve service without an incident. She looked so cute in her little black velvet dress. She took a little nap afterward and woke up feeling much better. Mike's parents came by and she was in a great mood. She has been super talkative tonight. Lots Gagaga's and things that sound like Mama and Dadas. Her vocalizations are so sporatic though...I just wish she'd say something on a regular basis! She's all decked out in her Christmas if we could just get her to go to sleep! If she only knew all the loot that was waiting for her at Grandma's, there's no way she would be able to sleep! Well, I'm off to fix her some strawberry milk and try to get her full and sleepy! Sweet dreams!

Tuesday, December 23, 2008


Reagan has been a real turkey the last couple of days. It's just so out of character with how she's been lately. I don't know if maybe she's coming down with something or what. She'll go into these crying fits out of nowhere. She was doing it last night and then again this afternoon. If she doesn't watch it, Santa is going to take back all of her presents. Too bad she doesn't understand that concept yet. I just don't think she's feeling quite right. This morning after therapy she fell asleep (before eating her morning bottle) and slept for 4hrs straight. I even woke her 1hr into it to feed her so she wouldn't starve and she never batted an eye, just drank the whole thing fast asleep. I eventually had to wake her up or she probably would have slept longer. Maybe it was seizure related. They have been relentless today. I just don't know anymore. It seems every time we increase her medications, she has an increase in seizures! That's not how it's supposed to work. Please keep this in your prayers. She definitely deserves some relief in this area. That's my Christmas wish.

Monday, December 22, 2008


Reagan woke up early again today at 5am crying. I picked her up and she settled down. I laid her down beside her Daddy and fixed her a bottle, but then out of no where the crying started again. I'm not sure what it was. She continued to fuss and cry until 6:40am or so when she fell back asleep. Something was definitely bothering her. I did put her AFOs on overnight (only for 6hrs or so), and that little toe is still really red. We took a trip today back to the orthotic place. I almost left her at home with Grandma, but I went ahead and took her along and I'm so glad I did. The orthotist was able to squeeze us in as a walk-in and he even did the casting for her night braces while we were there. These things are going to be monstrosities. They go all the way up to the top of the thigh...but they are made specifically for sleeping so they should be more comfortable to sleep in. Reagan was SO good with everything. She just laid there as he wrapped plaster all the way up her leg! Her little diaper was covered with plaster and water. As far as the AFOs go, he recommended taking a day off from them to let her toe heal and he cut away a little groove in the inner boot to make more room for that toe. Hopefully that will do the trick. Today has been another day without therapy or time in the stander. We'll make that up tomorrow. Reagan took a long nap this afternoon and has been a little feisty ever since. I know how that is, waking up from a nap feeling worse than before. Of course, who can blame her. Her seizures have been way too frequent today. Lots of twitches and times they are almost nonstop. Maybe she'll do better with the next increase? One has to hope. Please continue to keep her in your prayers.

Sunday, December 21, 2008

Be good for goodness sake

There is definitely the beginnings of a blister on the side of Reagan's foot. It's coming from some padding they added on Friday to the inner boot of her AFO. There is a definite seam that lines up directly with the red spot on her foot. Needless to say, it has to be fixed or it will be a blister in no time! Hopefully I can just run by tomorrow and show them what needs to be done and they can fix it quickly. I'm getting really sick of going back and forth to this place! Can they just get something right?!?!? Today was the first day since getting her casts off that I didn't put her in the stander. It probably worked out better that way, she doesn't need to irritate that foot any more than necessary, and she deserves one day a week off. Poor thing, her whole life is one therapy session after another! Today was her day of rest. And mine too. She's been such a sweetie again today. This girl is definitely on Santa's nice list this year!! I can't believe that Christmas is next week! I still haven't even mailed off our Christmas cards!! Oh well, better late than never!

Saturday, December 20, 2008

Red feet

Not much to report today. Reagan did wake a little early this morning at 5:45am. I took her AFOs off (after only 7 hours or so) and her feet were pretty red (the first time they've been red after wearing them at night). I don't know if it's the adjustments that were made to them (and they need to be refitted) or if it's just because she's finally positioned correctly in them with the straps tight and her heal securely in place. I sure don't want her getting a blister from these things. Seizures have been pretty rough today. I'm not sure if it has anything to do with yesterday's increase in Topomax. This morning she was having quite a few that were clustered right on top of one another. Poor thing. She's a trouper though...she's been in a great mood all day today. She's actually had a lot of good days lately. She really is a doll. Cuddly and sweet...such a little love. She's been spending 30-45min a day in her stander no problem. I should probably try to do it twice a day...but it seems there's just not enough time in the day to do everything we need to do. Please continue to keep her in your prayers!

Friday, December 19, 2008

More Topomax please

We went back first thing this morning to the Orthotic place to get another opinion on Reagan's new AFOs. The guy we saw today definitely knows his stuff and agreed that they are not the best fit. He suggested a couple things. He wanted to redo the brace with an adjustable ankle joint but Reagan's PM&R doctor (that has to write the prescription for it) already talked him out of it. He did make some adjustments to the ones we have, so hopefully they'll fit her better from now on, otherwise we'll have to go back in again. He also thinks she needs a special night orthosis. It will give her an additional stretch on her foot while she sleeps (and is relaxed). It's going to be kind of bulky (it will start above the knee) and it's custom fitted specifically for her, so it's going to be expensive...hopefully the insurance will cover it. This afternoon we met with a new feeding therapist. I really like her, she came highly recommended, the only issue is she's at a therapy place 30min from our house. Right now Reagan's not getting any feeding therapy and I think it's an area that she really needs some work, so we'll probably start that up sometime in January. I did finally hear back from her neurologist today. Her Topomax levels are 12, which is apparently a midrange level. He thinks we could definitely go up some more and hopefully see improvement, so that's the plan. I increased her PM dose back to 60mg tonight andwe'll see how she's doing next week at that dose. Please keep this in your prayers! All I want for Christmas is less seizures for this precious girl!!!

Thursday, December 18, 2008

Day O' Therapy

Reagan woke up early this morning and has been an absolute angel all day! She had a day full of therapy today, so I'm glad she's been so cooperative. She had OT this morning at 9am. Her OT mentioned this today and it's something I've noticed a lot lately...Reagan has been much more interested in toys. There are a few specific ones that will hold her interest for 30+min, which is amazing! I don't know if it's vision related or what, but she really seems to be zeroing in on them (instead of looking past them like she used to do). She had a great OT session, had a 30 min bottle break, and then had speech. She wasn't very vocal, but she was such a good girl. She was so worn out by the end, she was falling asleep in her chair. We went home and she slept until her afternoon therapy...PT at 2pm. She did great at PT as well. Reagan's physical therapist confirmed what I was already thinking...her new AFOs just don't seem to be fitting properly. They're a little too big on her and they are not flat enough to stretch her as much as she needs (to maintain the flexibility from casting). So we're going back in first thing tomorrow morning to see what they need to do. I'm afraid they're going to have to redo the whole casting process, which means we may not get new AFOs until after Christmas. Hopefully they can expedite them. Still no word from the neurologist on the results of the Topomax levels, that's really going to tell him which direction we need to go with the medication, so please keep that in your prayers (she's still having way too many seizures).

Wednesday, December 17, 2008

Santa brought new AFOs

As predicted the 8pm bedtime did not work out very well. Reagan woke up at midnight wide awake and raring to go! I fed her a bottle, but I was exhausted and barely able to keep my eyes open. When she was done, I put her in her bed and then watched her via video monitor. She didn't make a peep, but she was movin and groovin in there! I don't know how much longer she was up, but I admit, I was probably out pretty quick. We did finally make it to see Santa today. The pictures could have been better, she wasn't opening her eyes much, but oh well. Reagan was in such a great mood all day long, it was the perfect day to run around with her. I'm embarrassed to say that this was my first trip to the stores this holiday season. I LOVE the Christmas season, but I admit it's been hard to get into it this year. Money is tight and my mom already bought everything I wanted to get for Reagan, so there hasn't been much of a reason to get out into the stores. Reagan was a dream today, she was content in her stroller (which never happens) and we were able to just push her around from store to store without a peep. Then this afternoon we went to pick up her new AFOs. They didn't turn out at cute as I had hoped (they look a little 80's to me). I prefer the purple butterflies over these but it's too late now. I'm not sure how well they fit her, they seem a little big and not as flat as they should be, but what do I know. I'll have her PT look at them tomorrow. She wore them for 30 min in the stander tonight and was a little red afterwards, but most if not all of the redness was gone 30min after taking them off, so hopefully they're OK for her to sleep in. One thing I have noticed...the last casts her orthopedic put on her he pushed too hard inward and her big toes were squashed on top of her other toes. On her left foot it didn't seem to have any repercussions, but her right foot is totally turning outward now. I think that mistake single handily screwed up her foot! Hopefully by wearing the AFOs will straighten it out. I'd hate to think we would have to recast her again just to straighten out his screw up!!

Tuesday, December 16, 2008

A Quest

Reagan slept well last night (even going to bed early)...but she also woke early at 6am. She had OT at 9am this morning and she had a really great session. She was very alert and did a lot of weight baring on her arms (which is something she's not typically a fan of). We came home and she took a long nap. I went ahead and just let her sleep through PT because I found out today that she's running low on PT sessions (the insurance will only allow her to have 2 more sessions for the year), so I figured we'd spread them out a little with one this week and one next week. This afternoon she had vision therapy and she did the entire session standing in her stander! Her therapist brought this Christmas toy that Reagan just loved. It was a stage with 3 snowmen on it and when you press the button they twirl around and sing the song "there's no business like snow business", she was just fascinated by it. It was just perfect for her...the colors were black, white, and red (high contrast- perfect for her to see), they were dancing (and it's easier for her to see moving things), the song was loud but entertaining, and it even had lights that flashed up on them as they danced. It's one of those things I would LOVE to find for her. I go on these quests for specific toys for Reagan (usually things I see at therapy) and I'll look for them for months and months without any luck. Usually it's educational things I'm looking for, but the other day I saw a little girl wearing the cutest shoes and I've been on a quest for those shoes. They were little pink leather mary janes that squeaked when she walked on them!!! SO cute! I looked online and found a TON of just such shoes (all extremely cute) I have to make a decision on which pair to get. I'll keep you posted. Reagan was really worn out tonight and passed out cold at 8pm...without her medicine. I had to force it all down her throat and attempt to get her to swallow it (hopefully she got it all down). It's crazy, when she goes out like that there's just no dealing with her, she's OUT. I'm hoping she'll sleep the night through, but who knows, 8pm is very early for her. She may be up and ready to go at 2am! We're still waiting on the results of her blood tests before deciding what to do about her medications...please continue to keep her in your prayers!

Monday, December 15, 2008

Eye checkup

We went in this morning for Reagan's 3month ophthalmology checkup. Reagan was impossible, keeping her eyes closed or just barely open most of the time, it's hard to do an eye exam that way. Her doctor is really just watching her right eye which was showing some slight signs of a secondary cataract. It's basically just some scarring from when they removed the lens (sometimes they don't get all of the cells and the ones left behind begin to proliferate causing a cloudiness similar to the cataract itself). Luckily she said that it hasn't gotten any worse, she can still see around it and clearly see to the back of Reagan's eye, so for now it's OK and we'll just monitor it every 3months or so. We went from the eye appt to get some blood drawn from our favorite phlebotomist (the neurologist wanted to check her topomax levels as well as just a regular check on her counts). We ended up waiting over an hour (it's worse when you ask for a specific person) and Reagan was very irritated with the whole process. So needless to say she was less than thrilled with the blood draw (although it otherwise went very smoothly)...the fussing turned to screaming which continued non-stop for two hours! We're talking insane, hysterical crying (we were planning on going to see Santa today, but Reagan had other ideas). I thought for sure it had to be tummy related, but Grandma kept saying she thought it was just a tantrum gone wild, and who knows she might be right! Usually if it's tummy related it ends with a stinky diaper...but not this time. She finally just wore herself out and fell asleep. Maybe it was just a tantrum? She woke up in a much better mood (thank God). I put her in her stander for 40min today with little to no complaints. She does get a little red from the AFOs after standing for a period of time, but sleeping in them over night doesn't seem to cause any irritation whatsoever. Hopefully the new ones will be more comfortable for her. She's got OT, PT, and vision tomorrow...should be a busy day! Please continue to keep her in your prayers...we really need some days with less seizures!!!!

Sunday, December 14, 2008

Faith and Hope

Last night was a good one for sleep thank goodness...I sure needed that (she was wearing me out). I noticed this morning that Reagan was doing a lot of twitching (Mike said he noticed her doing it yesterday morning as well). The almost nonstop twitching of a foot or hand that she was doing a few months ago and an EEG confirmed that they were non-epileptic. What's strange is that with this increase in twitches, she's had a significant decrease in spasms today. I have no idea how it's related, but I'm glad to see less of the bad ones. She wore her AFOs last night for 9hrs straight with no redness or irritation. I also worked with her today on standing. I put her AFOs on her with her little tennis shoes made especially for the AFOs (which I'm going to have to buy new ones to fit over her new bigger AFOs) and I put her in her stander. She was in the stander maybe 20min or so when gravity did its thing and I was afraid she had had a blow-out. Luckily no, but we did move out of the stander and on to practicing walking. I held her from behind and I'd move one leg forward using my foot and then the other. Although I was doing most of the actual "stepping", she seemed to like it and she was doing a great job weight bearing and standing up tall. Then I took her over to the sofa and held her up in front of it. She's much older than the typical baby just learning to stand and she's so tall now, she kind of hovers over the edge. But she was putting her arms out and kind of leaning over on them, while still keeping her legs straight, so I was pretty impressed. Usually she tires very quickly and bends her knees and puts her butt out trying to sit down, but she was doing a great job. This girl is going to walk. No doubt about it. It's just a matter of when. We saw a couple of television church services this morning (before heading out to our church) and both of them were preaching similar messages. You have to have faith...even in the toughest of times...because nothing is beyond God. He can do anything and heal anyone. It's funny, often times I think about God healing Reagan or stopping her seizures through this medication or that medication...but imagine if He just did it. Regardless of medication or what we were doing for her. Wouldn't that be a bigger testimony to Him? Now, God's plans are not always our plans (boy don't we know that)...but sometimes they are better! So we're staying faithful that this little girl is going to blow the minds of all of her doctors and exceed even our highest hopes!

Saturday, December 13, 2008

Return of the tummy pains

Reagan's tummy pains are now officially back. She had some today (and a bout of it last week) that led to a 1.5hr crying fit and ended shortly after a dirty diaper. It's just crazy that she didn't have any of these crying fits/tummy pains when she had the nasty stomach virus that caused her to go several times a day! I bought some probiotics a month or so ago, that I was going to try to give them to her to help with digestion and maybe provide some relief...but I just never started her on it. She got sick and was taking so many additional medications, I didn't want to add anything new to the mix. But now might be the perfect time to try. Other than the fit, she's been super smiley and good most of the day today. She slept in her AFOs last night (7hrs) and her feet seemed fine afterwards, although I did put them on her today for only 1.5 hrs and when I took them off her heels were really red. I'll be glad when the new ones are ready. I also put her in her stander tonight for the first time in a while. She tolerated it pretty well for about 25min but then was ready to get out. Here are a few pics of her today...

Friday, December 12, 2008

Late night naps

Last night was a long one. Reagan has been doing this thing lately where she'll get sleepy around 7pm and want to take a nap (pushing her actual bedtime back to Midnight or so). Apparently most kids go to bed at a normal time around 7-8pm, but Reagan still has medicine to take and another bottle to drink at this point. So last night I tried it out to see how she would do if we just let her sleep. She fell asleep around 7, so I had to give her her last bottle while sleeping (she even drank it faster and with less resistance than when she's awake) and I even managed to giver her the PM doses of her medicine while she was sleeping. I put her in her bed and that lasted until 2am when she woke up and was wide awake...that's why we don't put her to bed so early! I was up with her until 4am, when I finally just laid her in her bed, she wasn't exhausted but I was. She only whined a little and then thankfully went to sleep. We took her to the Orthotic place this morning. She has outgrown her old AFOs in just 6 months. They recast her for new ones (pink and purple plaid) but they won't be ready until Wednesday . It's sooner than I thought but she can't go that long without wearing anything at all. So they reshaped her old ones and without the inner boots we were able to get them on her. It's not a perfect fit, but it's going to have to do until the new ones are ready to go. They couldn't tell me how often she needs to wear's just trial and error (sound familiar). How ever long her sensitive skin can tolerate it. I finally finished decorating our Christmas tree today (with help from my mom). I hate waiting this long to do it, but we have been busy. Please keep Reagan in your prayers this weekend, she really needs some relief from these seizures.

Thursday, December 11, 2008

Foot loose

Yeah...the casts are finally off!!!! Reagan wore them for 5 weeks total. Her feet look SO good. They are totally flat now. They're a little bruised and very dry and scaly...but they are so flat!!! It's amazing, her balance has even improved now that she's standing on her entire foot (instead of just her tippy toes). We're going in tomorrow morning to get her recasted for new AFOs (not new casts). It usually takes 2 weeks or so to make them, so she'll have to wear her old ones until then (mainly at night). I'm not about to let them go back to the way they were before the casts! I am going to have to be vigilant about putting her in her stander from now on (somebody stay on me about that). She had PT this afternoon and she was back in the walker once again. That's the next piece of equipment we need to get for her. Speaking of, we just heard back from Variety and it looks like they are going to give us $2500 to use toward the purchase of equipment for Reagan. I had really all but given up on them (considering I sent in the application over 4 months ago), so I was beyond excited when I finally heard back from them with the good news! Now that we finally have insurance approval on the seating system (and hopefully we'll have it by year end), we can probably use most of this new funding towards getting her a walker. It really has been an answer to prayers that we were able to get insurance approval for the seating system and additional help for any out of pocket expenses! Now if only we could do something about these stinking seizures! They've been bad today as well. I'm still hoping that as we lower the topomax, her seizures will follow suit. Please keep her in your prayers.

Wednesday, December 10, 2008

Let it snow!

We took Reagan into therapy today for pictures (not therapy)! That's right, her physical therapist's mother (the one that already took pictures of Reagan) donated her time (and energy) today to take pictures of the kids that have therapy there. She actually had sign up sheets for this Wednesday and next Wednesday...we signed up for both days just in case we didn't get a good shot on the first go round. Reagan was in a great mood and smiling a lot, but she just did NOT want to open her eyes. I'm not sure how they'll turn out, but hopefully she got a few good ones. Seizures were still rough today. I spoke with her neurologist (at 5pm this afternoon) and he agreed with lowering the topomax (to the level that I already lowered it) and wants to check her blood levels on Monday when we take her in for an eye follow up. I'm so fed up with doctors! I just want to find someone that cares about Reagan, are there any doctors out there that genuinely want to help their patients?? I don't think we've found one yet. Please keep this in your prayers. On a completely different's snowing in Houston!!! For those of you that are not from this NEVER snows here (well once in a blue moon maybe)! This is Reagan's first snow and Bear's second. He enjoyed it a lot more than she did. Hope you enjoy the pics!

Tuesday, December 9, 2008


In totally unrelated news, we got a new car today. Talk about a fiasco. Let's just say we started this process on Friday and it's taken this long to finally get all the kinks out and papers signed. We upgraded our Volvo sedan for the Volvo SUV. We actually did a lease and are now paying significantly less for a more expensive vehicle...funny how that works. Today was Reagan's busy day of therapy. Unfortunately she's been pretty floppy with lots of seizures all day. OT went well enough this morning but she was wiped out afterward and slept until PT at 2. She woke up and had almost non-stop seizures for 2 hrs straight. Then she took another nap and woke up just in time for vision therapy. Today wasn't a regularly scheduled vision session, it was a make-up session since her therapist missed all last week. It was neat because her previous vision teacher came to make it up and we haven't seen her in months. She seemed impressed that Reagan was reaching out to touch/grab things so much more than before. Making small progress in spite of these stinking seizures. Poor girl...this has got to stop! I put a call in to her neurologist today. I'm pretty sure he's going to want to go back down on the Topomax, so I lowered her pm dose tonight back to 45mg. I'm at a total loss for what to do. Please keep her in your prayers.

Monday, December 8, 2008

Lots to say

Reagan went to bed early last night and for once we followed suit. Which is probably a good thing because she woke up at 4:30am. She fussed a little but then settled down and either went back to sleep or just became very quiet until 5:30am. At that point she was definitely up but at least she was good. I gave her a bottle and she fell back asleep around 7am. She's been in a great mood all day today. Super talkative again. I wish I would have gotten this on was nonstop! Too bad she didn't have speech today. Actually all of her Monday therapies were switched to Tuesday this week, so hopefully she'll be good tomorrow as well. She's got OT, PT, and then vision. It's going to be a busy day. We're so excited...Reagan gets her casts off on Thursday! Finally!!! After talking it over with her physical therapist, I think we're going to just put her AFOs on her at night (since she's already used to sleeping with casts). That way she'll stay stretched out, but she won't have to wear them 24/7. She's probably going to kick up a storm once they are off. I'm guessing it's almost a feeling of weightlessness, after having those heavy things weighing her legs down for so long. Below is a picture of our little angel. How cute is she?

Sunday, December 7, 2008

Getting back to normal

Today was another lazy day for us. Mike finally took down and assembled the Christmas tree and put up the wreath over the garage. I had the easier job of separating and "fluffing" the branches on the tree. Sounds simple, but it's surprisingly time consuming and it does scratch the heck out of your hands. Still no ornaments up steps. Reagan has had a pretty good day. It seems we've seen the last of that virus, so much so we've started back up on her daily regimen of Miralax. She was fussing and seemed to be having some tummy pains tonight before's strange how she was having less abdominal pain and discomfort with the severe diarrhea than she does on a regular basis. It doesn't really make sense. I think she's probably having some gum pain too. I noticed a few days ago she has two more teeth that have finally broken the gums (the bottom right second tooth from the middle and the bottom right molar). That makes nine teeth now!! She was running a low grade fever tonight and I'm guessing that's why. Hopefully we can get her 100% soon, so we can make a clear assessment about what direction to take with her seizure medications. We have got to get something to work for her! Please keep her in your prayers!

Saturday, December 6, 2008

Out of the woods

You should have seen us last night trying to get Reagan's medicine into her! She just would NOT wake up! Finally around midnight, I was somehow able to get the last of it into her. Don't ask me was Topomax sprinkles in a small amount of baby food and she was still out cold...I'm not really sure how it all worked out! Anyway, it was nothing short of a miracle that she slept the whole night through (considering she went to bed so early) but thank goodness she did. And then this morning she woke up a different baby. Very alert, ready and willing to eat, and no more diarrhea (as I'm sure everyone is thrilled to hear the end of the poop talk)!! She did wake up with a little something in her diaper, but the consistancy was much improved and she hasn't had anything else all day long (except several good wet diapers). We're hoping that she is finally done with this nasty, nasty virus. Thank you everyone for your prayers. Please continue to pray that we'll begin to see some improvement in her seizures this week.

Friday, December 5, 2008


Reagan has been so floppy today. She's had brief bursts of energy followed by super sleepy floppiness. She has been impossible to feed today as well. She clamps her gums down and you literally have to pry her mouth open to even get the bottle in it! And then she refuses to it just drips into her mouth...which she may or may not swallow! She's only had 10 oz of formula today and then she fell asleep without taking her pm dose of medicine. We're talking she was out like a light. There was just NO waking her up so I'm hoping to let her sleep for a little while and then try to wake her briefly to get the medicine down her and get her back to sleep. We'll see how that goes. I am concerned about her getting dehydrated. The plan is to see how she's doing in the morning and we may take her in to the pediatrician's emergency office hours tomorrow morning just to get checked out. After several people suggesting she may have Rotavirus, I read up on it and it sounds right on. Today is Day 10 of the virus (and Day 8 of diarrhea) so she really should be getting better soon, right? Please keep her in your prayers!

Thursday, December 4, 2008

The never ending virus

So today is Day 9 of this horrible stomach virus. It seems like it's never going to end! I just hope we can get through this without a trip to the ER for dehydration. I know she's probably walking a fine line. On a good note, today is the first day that Reagan did not have a diaper blow-out and she continues to be in good spirits...on a bad note, she's still having multiple dirty diapers a day and her seizures are still just as bad. Reagan had OT and Speech this morning and she was very good for both. She's been very vocal today. Her vocalizations are just so sporadic...not even just day to day but minute to minute. Sometimes she's very vocal and sometimes she's completely silent (although some of that could be medication related). Today was definitely a vocal day. I actually took a video of it...I hope you enjoy it (sorry for the "rain" background noise). This is just a little snippet of her "talking". Please continue to keep her in your prayers!

Wednesday, December 3, 2008

Same old, same old

The stomach virus issues continue. There's not much we can do but just give her fluids and pray that she gets over it soon. We had to move Reagan's physical therapy appt to this morning (because her therapist is going out of town), but she seemed to do really well with the time change. Her therapist noticed that she was much more alert than she's been lately, which is always a good thing for therapy. I did finally get a call back from her neurologist this afternoon. He didn't have much new input. Basically everything he said were things I had already considered...what exactly are we paying these doctors for if it's all just trial and error? Anyway, he said that it's possible the increased doses of Topomax are increasing her seizures (we could try going back down and seeing how she does) or it's possible that her being sick, first with RSV and now with a stomach virus, could be causing the increase. So the plan is to just wait until next week (when hopefully she's over this virus) her to see if there is any improvement in her seizures and then bring her in to have her blood levels checked before making any changes. He doesn't want us to increase her dose as planned for tomorrow, because if she is dehydrated it could increase the chances of her developing metabolic acidosis (which is not a good thing). So...we're just holding tight until next week. He does not want to change any of the other medications she is on (much to our dismay) until we figure out what is going on with the Topomax. Please keep her in your prayers...between the seizures and this stomach virus, she's got a lot on her plate right now!

Tuesday, December 2, 2008


Reagan was a handful last night and did not want to go to sleep...but for Daddy she'll do anything and Mike was the one that was finally able to get her to go down. She woke up at 1:30am crying, I was hesitant to go get her but thank goodness I did. She had a full diaper which would have leaked had I not gotten her at that exact moment. I cleaned her up and laid her back down and she went back to sleep. She actually slept until 10am! Her ECI coordinator came by and was surprised to see how well she was grasping at and fixating on toys. We have definitely noticed lately that her eyesight seems to be improving. Her left eye is straightening out, which basically means it's getting stronger and she's using it more (since the surgery). She's even making more eye contact than before. The last few weeks I haven't even put any tape on her hands because they are rarely in fists anymore. She's opening her hands up and touching on things much more than before. She's also doing this cute little pointing thing with both'll put a toy in front of her trying to get her to touch it and she'll reach out with her little pointer finger to touch's so cute. The other morning she was laying beside me in bed and kept poking me in the face! I'm not sure how purposeful it is, but it's definitely a new thing she's doing a lot. Reagan went all day today without a nasty diaper (the longest she's gone since getting sick) and then around 5:30pm she had one. I managed to changer her without too much of a mess. Then around 6:15pm she started crying...inconsolable crying. About 20min into it, she produced another dirty diaper that miraculously leaked out of her diaper, all over me and the chair, but didn't get a drop on her own clothes! I thought for sure that would stop her crying but no! She finally stopped an hour or so later when she fell asleep. Luckily she woke much, much happier. Hopefully we can get through the night without another incident. I spoke with her pediatrician's nurse today and she is definitely concerned about the potential for dehydration. She said a virus like this usually lasts for 7-10 we could still have a while to go. She wants us to keep a close eye on her in the meantime. Please continue to keep Reagan in your prayers!!!

Monday, December 1, 2008

Still sick

I don't know what we're going to do with this girl! She's still got a serious case of the poops! We went to OT this morning and on our way home she seemed sleepy. I went to pick her up out of the carseat and she had gone so much she was leaking out of her pants! It was everywhere (and filled with her am dose of topomax)! Poor thing! She has had two more full diapers since then as well. I know she has to be losing weight. She's eating about the same as before, but I don't think she's digesting most of it. She's been very floppy today as noted by both her OT and her PT. It's hard to say whether it's the Topomax or being sick...most likely a combination of both. Her seizures were very frequent this morning but have definitely tapered off a lot tonight (thank God). I put a call in to her neurologist today and heard back from his nurse about her topomax refill but no word from him. I guess I'll call again tomorrow. When you have multiple issues, they often call back regarding one but not the other. No surprise. Please continue to keep Reagan in your prayers...she really needs to kick this stomach virus in the butt!